On Wednesdays our family usually just stays at school until choir and church start. As we were sitting in my room Abigail asked me "How much longer until we know who our little sister is?" I just simply said it's all in God's timing and left it at that.
After church as we were walking out the door my sweet Abigail just burst into tears and said "Why is it taking so long? There are so many people that started adopting after we did and they are getting their babies". I tried to explain God is in control and knows what's going on we just have to trust him. When we got in the car we prayed that God would hurry up. She cried all the way home. It was a true heart felt cry she simply did not understand. The problem was I did not either. I keep saying it's all in God's timing but do I really believe it?
When we got home it was straight to the shower. I could hear her crying in the shower and went up to try and comfort her. I decided I would take another approach and talk about other things. Well everything I said would lead straight back to our little sister. I asked what do you want to do this weekend? Her answer was play with my little sister. I asked her? What she wanted for Christmas? My little sister. I finally gave up and said go on in your room and get dressed and I will be there in a minute to tuck you in.
As I came up the stairs I heard the most beautiful words. My daughter was crying out to Jesus in a way that warmed my soul.
She was bawling saying "Why is this taking so long? I love you Jesus and know it is all in your timing but why does it hurt so bad. My heart is hurting. I don't understand Lord but I love you! Why are you doing this to me I have been praying about this for over a year? I just want to see and love on my sister. Who is taking care of her right now? I know you are but I want to, too."
As I walked in the room she just looked at me and cried. The only thing I knew to do at this point was hold her. I just laid in the bed holding her, listening to her cry, and praying with her until she fell asleep. As she was sleeping I just prayed over her that God would give her peace. She did look so peaceful sleeping.
Abigail has such a heart for orphans already I can't wait to see what is in store for her. If you see her anytime soon just give her a big hug. She needs some encouraging.
As I went to bed I was reminded by Abigail sometimes we just have to cry out to the Lord!
So we as a family are still waiting and praying, praying and waiting.
"But do not forget this one thing, dear friends" With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. 9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness.
2 Peter 3: 8-9
Sweet, sweet Abigail! What life lessons our Savior is giving in the midst of the pain and sorrow. His presence is real, even to your sweet 9 year old! I was thinking about the recent adoptions and the fact you had started sooner, but your daughter hasn't been revealed to you yet. It felt "not fair!" Then I was reminded if that if God was not having you wait, you wouldn't be getting YOUR daughter, the girl that God has picked for you for before you even knew you would have her. His timing is just right for you all because He knows who He has picked for you, for your Abigail, for your family. Praying for you all!
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